If you are a friend of ioHann, i believe it is my duty to warn you of this person’s disorders for your further understanding, or maybe as a warning:
- he’s a freakin masochist (or was). He’s addicted to pain both physically, mentally and psychologically. He likes seeing his own blood and indulges in the pain like a little girl who got her first orgasm. He wallows in the memories of people who hurt him, and relives each scenario until his heart could not take it anymore. Back in high school, he made a number of his classmates freak out and cry as when he slashed his wrist with a cutter in Math class while his teacher was tormenting him. In Botany class, Mr. de Guzman (another psychotic teacher) thought it was funny to ask ioHann to donate his blood for microscopic observation using a pocket knife, then finding himself panicking when ioHann slashed his hand (for Mr. de Guzman’s namesake). That’s how he likes to torment people, by spilling his blood on them, fucking exhibisionist. He so claims to have ‘graduated’ from this masochism disorder, but in certain recent sitations i have observed his resort to certain masochistic manifestations (slashing, cutting himself) when under extreme psychological (not emotional) torment, that of which brings trauma. (i.e. verbal abuse)
- He’s a fucking psychotic. He’s also was also a frustrated arsonist back in high school, he planned to burn down the CAT headquarters and everything in it, but ended up burning the nameplate of their psychotic commandant (Harrison Galang) instead. After his English teacher, Ms. Larcena, unjustly embarrased one of his friends in class, all he could do is break her classroom’s window that night, when he originally planned to smash all the fucking trophies (of the students she ‘trained’ ) that she boastingly displayed on her table. Soon i discovered that his friend’s moral damage wasn’t the main reason he hated this teacher, but because she used him to get a Most Outstanding Teacher award. Somehow i know that he wasnt able to accomplish alot of psychotic things he plotted in his old almamater, but he keeps a blacklist of the people he’s gonna make hell out of. Man, you dont wanna be in that list.
- He befriends his worst enemies and gains their trust and friendship so that he can permanently damage them in their most vulnerable state. i think he follows the Art of War creed. He is also driven by Machiavellian philosophies, which could be good and dangerous in the same way.
- He hates cliches and people who are cliches.
- he doesnt fight back face to face, but plots the worst evil he can think of to make their life hell a hundred fold of what they did to him. He makes his enemies their own enemies. he "haunts them with heir own ghosts" as he quotes himself. His ultimate fulfillment of revenge is to drive his enemies to commit suicide.
-he has learned how to dismiss or get over emotions faster than typical people, thus resulting to his obsession to psycho-emotional pain, also resulting to a very cynical philosophy of ‘love’.
-he has a dangerous skill of manipulation, especially when it comes to conversation and extracting information. One application of this is his sick pastime of being able to bring out the id of a person simply through conversing with them. His pastime collections are the naughty confessions of conservative people around him. Strongly armed with Sigmund Freuds techniques and theories for ammunition, he ‘extracts’ people’s inner sexuality just for fun. The more conservative the person is, the more he finds it a challenge. Although being able to ‘extract’ such people of their deepest darkest taboos, he never goes any further than that. The ‘extraction’ or breaking of ones walls of taboos of sex is his ultimate fulfillment, because it proves his Freudian theories. And why is this dangerous? to him it is, because it got him into alot of trouble already. To this point, i heard a few people would very much like to kill him believeing that he actually practices what he preaches, which is primarily a threat to them.
-He has a tendency to ‘trust’ people too much, which is a contradiction to the above mentioned disorders, but sadly true. This results to his strong tendency to be used and abused, thus contributing to his currents psychological disorders.
-He’s a fucking paranoid when it comes to ‘friends’. although he claims that he is over it, i still believe he is still in fact paranoid in some situations — like friends who do not reply or manifest any form of their existence to him with no clear reason at all when he consistently tries to get their attention or look for them. such a ‘reality’ he so claims that led to his ephimeral philosophy of ‘friends’ around him.
-He has a deathwish, but is not suicidal. he wishes to die, but would not take it in his own hands. He fantasises getting fatally shot in a crossfire in the street, or dying in his sleep. Another of his obsession regarding this is his fantasy of haunting his living enemies and psychologically torment them with his spirit after his death.
-He admits that it does him no good, but is a state he cannot undo because of his life experiences and knowlege he acquired — his being a skeptic in almost anything he wants to defy.
-and finally, given all this psychological disorders, he is still a contradiction of alot of things he claims (the above statements) or believes in — such as his hatred of cliches and people who are cliches, when deep inside he knows that the only way he could possibly be happy is to BE a cliche… thus a sad reality that could drive him to stop believeing in happiness itself. He claims such things today, but admits that things could change by tomorrow. He claims never to get marrie or even be in a relationship with a girl in his lifetime, but deep inside he still longs for it.
I believe all of this psychotic disorders of ioHann roots to fear. Fears he isn’t even aware of, neither am i. possibly caused by all the traumatic experiences in his life, consistent use and abuse as a consequence of ‘being too nice’ as his friends say.
ioHann believes you can never truly or fully know a person, or even yourself as much as people would like to claim it.
for those who did not know the information i have shared about him, now you are warned.
Achae Dublin
achaed@yahoo.com
